Tuesday, April 8, 2014

How my life has changed

It has been so long since I have had a chance to even sit down, let alone post on my blog. About 8 months ago I needed to get a full time job and quit substitute teaching which I loved so much. I had worked in retail management for 13 years before having kids. So it was really my only option when going back to work since I cannot do any kind of work where I sit all day (I would go bonkers).  I was lucky enough to have a husband that could earn enough money so I could stay home and be a full time mom when my kids were little. I did work when they were younger but it was things I could work around my families schedule like my scrapbooking business and substitute teaching. Now I work all hours of the day and night and I'm finding it hard and stressful and sometimes sad to miss things that are going on in my family. I know lots of Mom's are full time workers and then come home to do all the house and kid stuff too. I like to give 100% to what I do at work and home and I'm finding that it's just not possible anymore. I keep thinking that one of these days I'll get caught up on all the things I've neglected but that day never comes. I haven't had a lot of time for my creative outlet and maybe that would help, but that too is on the back burner. So I guess you do what you can do and then move on. I'm off work today and had a good workout at the gym and then I get to go see my son get an award of some kind at school. Then off to piano practice for one, guitar practice for another, laundry, and then the list goes on and on. But I have family members and friends who are going through much harder times with kids, husbands, money problems,violence and so on. And I realize that I'm very blessed with a great husband who works hard and does all he can to get us everything we need(and a lot we don't) Three kids who are respectful, kind, get good grades and are all around good kids. We have a beautiful home. We live near all our family members and get to see them all the time. When you look at things from the positive side you realize how good you have it and hopefully that will get me through my pity party.